Today was my second worst practice day ever! My body felt like it was cold, filled with liquid cement and I had no energy. I got as far as Marichyasana C and that was about all I could manage before finishing off with the closing asanas.
I’m not giving myself too hard a time though because I know that getting up regularly at 5:30am to practice and doing 5 A and 5 B sun salutations is quite an achievement. But damn was it tough today! It’s a relief to know these things pass and tomorrow will be different.
Just thought I’d share it in case anyone else is having a tough time.
Yes I know where you’re coming from! Funnily enough, I felt very rough too during my practice early this week. Really heavy and clumsy, and breathing really clogged up with catarrh…yuck! The difficult thing then is not to judge yourself harshly and let the negative thoughts start creeping in. I was certainly aware of having some negative thoughts towards myself – but I think it’s important to be as loving and compassionate towards ourselves as possible. I try and remind myself that I’m doing the best I can, sticking to the practice and not being lazy, so the rest is up to the universe to take care of!
Hi Louise,
Thats all really sound advice. Difficult to practice sometimes but sound advice none the less : )
What I forgot to mention in my post was that I had to deal with an extremely frustrating customer services issue with my old internet provider the day before – something thats been ongoing for 6 months. I had a very difficult phone call with customer services without any resolution – again.
It feels like that anger that I had inside really affected my practice the next day. I find it’s pretty tough to be kind to myself when I’m so angry and with the regular practice I really notice how things affect me. Even though I wasn’t angry with myself, I was still angry. I think this has been a good experience of how the mind and body can affect each other so profoundly.
I really liked the end of your comment where you’re acknowledging your effort and accepting your place in the universe. It just seems so balanced. Thanks.
God I know what you mean about customer service rage. I had a problem with Virgin Media which nearly drove me insane. I felt so powerless. It’s interesting how anger affects the practice – I think the physical sensations you felt shows how anger has a toxic effect on the body..
Hope you are having a good weekend and see you at practice next week!